A Teddy’s Story

Once upon a time when I was a kid, I came across a teddy bear. It was fluffy and cute, it was too cuddly, lovable and nice, it was everything I had ever needed, but I was afraid to show it to people, because I was scared my parents would scold me for bringing a stray teddy home. So I hid it deep-deep inside my closets.

Years passed on, and once, when I was cleaning my closets I found the teddy again. I wasn’t afraid of showing it to everybody anymore, but I dared not tell anyone it was the most precious thing I’ve ever had acquired. It was something I didn’t even want to admit myself. Nonetheless, I put the teddy in a place everybody could see, next to the rest of my teddy bears and plushes. Sometimes I would tell everyone it was my favourite teddy in the whole bunch, sometimes I would tell them I hated the teddy, other times I would ignore the teddy, and some other times I would even throw it into dirt and yell at it that I’d better never took it home with me. But no matter what, no matter how much I tore it apart, the sweet teddy was always there, it never left my side.

Time went on and day by day I kept growing more and more fond of my precious teddy. And then, one day when I wanted to show my teddy to the whole world, to let them know that it was my everything… it disappeared. I looked for it everywhere, but couldn’t find it no matter how hard I looked. I looked for a long time, but couldn’t find even a single trace of the teddy. It was gone, probably forever.

I am still looking for my teddy. If I am lucky it might return to me on its own. But somewhere deep down in my heart I know I’ll never get to see my teddy again.

But despite losing my sweet teddy, and even if I find a better and newer teddy, my old and worn out teddy will always be my favourite.

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Here's another short story I wrote a long time ago. It's not great or anything but I really like it ^_^ Hope you'll like it too!

I am nothing without my demons…

You have seen hell.. and it will stay inside of you forever. Your hell, your demons. They are there for a lifetime, they are there to remind you of the road you chose to go through. They are there to remind you of all of the mistakes you have made. They are there to tear your soul to little filthy pieces and make you suffer. They are there to feed on every single weakness your mind will show. They are there to torture you. They are there to drive you insane. They are there to devour you from the inside. They are there to consume you in your own darkness. They are there… forever. But they are your demons, it is your hell. You are nothing without your demons. You are your demons. You cant run away from yourself. They are there to destroy you unless you wake up. Until you realise they are you and you are them. Unless you merge with your hell. unless you become one with your demons.

I am my hell. I am my demons. I am nothing without my demons.

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This is a little something I have written a long time ago. I hope you enjoyed it! ^_^

Gekkan Shoujo Nozaki-kun | Monthly Girls' Nozaki-kun (Anime Review)

Hello my friends! Today I'm going to review one more anime. I finished watching it just now and decided to write the review while the show is fresh in my mind.

As always, BEWARE OF SPOILERS! ^^

Gekkan Shoujo Nozaki-kun

I'll be honest, I was expecting to watch yet another generic and cliché shoujo anime, but the main character was so cute I decided to watch it anyway. 

It started with a scene in high school: sunset, a girl who's extremely shy but tries her best to confess to the guy whom she likes. She masters all her courage and ends up telling him "I've always been your fan". And for some reason the guy gives her an autograph (wat)! Then somehow she ends up in this guys home, and it turns out Nozaki-kun is just a clueless guy who's actually a mangaka of a real famous shoujo manga!

In next couple of episodes we get introduced to some more character. We meet a guy named Mikoshiba (Mikorin) who turns out to be the model of the heroine of Nozaki's manga. An adorable character to a certain degree. He's pretty funny too.

I can confidently say that all of the characters are well made, not boring and most importantly funny. We've got Seo, who is a violent girl, but seems to not notice why people tend to be mad with her all the time. She also has an angelic voice, which contradicts with her character.

We've got Kashima. At first pretty much everyone thinks Kashima is a boy, but then they notice her skirt and understand she's a girl. She's a bit of a dense character, but she really lover her senpai, though those feelings make her to stuff that make her senpai be angry with her.

We've got the senpai, Hori. He's the president of the drama club. A cool, honest and talented guy. He is constantly mad with Kashima, but he actually cares about her and maybe has feelings for her somewhere deep inside his heart.

Well aren't these three just cute? :3

Anyway let's jump to cons and pros.

Cons:

1. Somewhere in the middle the show got a bit boring, and the humour was sort of mediocre too. Felt a bit tryhard.

2. I really like nice scenery scenes in my anime, but this one was mostly in doors. Nonetheless, we get a couple of really pretty scenery scenes:

 

 

 

 

3. They wrapped up the show in a real cute way in the last episode, but it didn't give away the feeling of being completed. So we need either an ova, or a new season to get answers for a couple of things.

Pros:

1. Even though this wasn't an anime like Bakuman, where we get introduced to the detailed life of a mangaka, it still managed to portray mangaka's life to a degree: the struggle for ideas, finding inspiration in real life, working with editors, sometimes with good ones, sometimes with terrible ones.

2. Detailed facial expressions. Some of the characters had many changes in their facial expressions and that was animated splendidly. Some were so cute too :3

4. Humour! This anime had many real good jokes which made me laugh out loud. The mood was so light, and gave you a fuzzy fluffy feeling. It made you feel at ease. These two screenshots should sum it up for you:

Well basically, this is one of those anime that made my kokoro go doki-doki, and made my soul feel real warm and cosy. That's one of the things I try to find in anime I watch, but it's sort of rare these days.

I daresay this is a bit of a unique romantic comedy, and it's definitely worth your time! I rate it 7/10.

Once again thanks for reading! See you soon ^_^

Durarara!!x2 Shou | Drrr!! (Anime)

My greetings to you all! Today I'm going to review another anime, which happens to be one of my favourites. I have watched the first season of Durarara after a friend harassed and pestered me for months telling me to watch it. And since our taste in anime is quite different I was pretty sure I wouldn't like this one either. I just decided to watch an episode, maybe two and drop it if it's bad.

But hey who would have guessed. I had never watched anything more cynical, more absurd, more nonsensical. The thing about Drrr is that its nonsense makes complete sense within the boundaries of this anime. Anyway, I watched it in one go. It was good. I was glad I watched it. But never did I expect to get a second season of it.

Last year around this time I learnt there was going to be a second season and that made me fucking happy, but as many I too was afraid the new season might screw up the story. But hey, it didn't!

Well let's get started :) BEWARE OF SPOILERS!

Durarara!!x2 Shou

The first couple of episodes didn't make any sense at all, but they were funny, and I felt like I was in Ikebukuro again. They managed to keep the same mood, even though they changed quite a bit of the soundtracks, however the new ones are just as good. Psychedelic is new to me, and I got introduced to this kind of music through Durarara. I can't imagine anything else fitting this anime any better!

We got introduced to a couple of new characters. Some of them I hated, some of them I liked.

I totally loved the Russian hitman girl Vorona (crow). I especially enjoyed her back-story. A book girl, somebody who finds salvation in books, somebody who uses those books to learn everything. It was really cool to see a character who reads a lot of books being portrayed as a badass girl, rather than a geek or a nerd.

The other Russian character though, Slon (elephant) was goddamn annoying. A guy who asks questions all the times, and the answers arise new questions for him. But these two were a nice duo, one asks the questions, the other answers them.

Most characters didn't change. They were the same, the show was the same, I was glad everything was the same. To a degree it made me facepalm sometimes :D

There is really not much to say about Durarara. The show speaks for itself. So I'll fast forward to Cons and Pros. And here we go:

Cons:

1. I guess this one was a bit too fast-paced for my liking, but hey it had it's own charm.

2. Some characters got a bit annoying, like Kida for me, even tho he was cool at first, he ended up being a complete wimp in this season. Mikado was just as useless. In my opinion he needs a bit more development.

3. Even more randomness in this season which got me confused a lot.

Pros:

1. So cynical you can't stop laughing. Pretty much every phrase in this anime is gold.

2. Shizaya action. Those two are just amazing. Both of them in their own league. The moment when Shizuo learnt Izaya cornered him his smile was oh so fucking precious!

3. Celty fucking Sturulson.

4. The show ends with such a cliffhanger you would have never saw coming. I mean who would expect THAT Izaya getting stabbed just like that?!

5. And one more thing.. look at these screenshots! They relay more than any words can ever say.

6. One more thing. Some anime have splendid animation and Durarara happens to be one of them.

Anyway! I give this 8.5 points out of 10. A great show, maybe a bit fast-paced, but you'll get to laugh a lot :)

Thanks for reading! See you soon!

Shigatsu wa Kimi no Uso | Your Lie in April (Anime)

Hi everyone! This is my first post on this blog. I actually meant to make this into a book review blog, but I suppose I'll also write reviews on anime and movies I've watched. :)

So let's get to straight to the point! SPOILERS INCOMING!

Shigatsu wa Kimi no Uso

I am a huge anime fan and I have watched over 350 anime. My taste has changed a lot with time, and recently no matter what I watch I just end up either hating it, or not getting into the show. Something is always missing.

The other day my boyfriend sent me a picture of an anime girl like usual. But she was so beautiful, so dazzling, something about that girl and her smile enchanted me. On the left upper corner I read the following kanji: 四月は君の嘘。

It turned out the show had just ended a couple of weeks ago. I decided to watch this show in a second, and I watched it in one breath...

I must admit that I have a passion for classical music, hence it became even more enjoyable. I also must admit that I haven't enjoyed an anime this much since Nodame Cantabile. However, unlike Nodame, this one was bitter-sweet...

You could tell from the very first minutes that something bad was going to happen, that someone was going to get hurt, and when Kaori collapsed on stage you could tell it's her, you could tell she's not going to stay alive for much longer.

Well unlike what I thought she was alive till the very last episode, and didn't die somewhere midanime which would probably be for the worse.

It made me really sad that Kaori didn't manage to play with Kousei more than once, and even then Kousei somehow managed to fuck it up to a degree. But hey, Kaori managed to make her dream come true and that counts! :)

I don't want to make this post much longer, so I'll mention a couple of more things that I liked and that bothered me.

Cons:

1. At first I really disliked how Kousei's mother was portrayed. They made her seem like some kind of monster. I both hated her, and pitied her. 

2. I found it a bit unrealistic that a 2 year gap could make those kids look so different. I mean before Kousei quit playing he looked like 7? 8 at best. And in the current time he looked around 16. Well it's just an animation style thing, so not a huge problem.

3. The show was very predictable from the start, but it doesn't make it any worse really. I'd just like to not see the tragedy coming so early in the show.

Pros:

1. I want to connect this with the first con, since in the end it turned out that the monster-like image of Kousei's mother was just his imagination which was brought to life maybe because of guilt. You can disagree, and say she abused him. And I will agree, child abuse is bad. But let us think of the circumstances for a second. Kousei's father was never around for whatever shitty reason it might have been. His mother was sick and she could tell her end was approaching. She had an only child, a little cute boy who had talent which he could use. His mother loved him just as much as our parents love us. She wanted to create a way for his son to be able to earn his own money as soon as possible and that was by playing piano. She was harsh on him, at times she was cruel, but that was because she knew the world of musicians so well, that's because she knew that suffering like that would make her son stronger. And she wasn't wrong. Kousei was able to become an amazing pianist thanks to his mother, and only her. If it wasn't for her he might have been an amateur, never a pro. He played for his mother's sake. And then he played for Kaori. Now doesn't this mean that his mother meant a world to the child Kousei?

2. This anime has a spectacular character development. It's amazing that not even main character but even the tiniest supporting characters managed to grow up, change, reflect on their mistakes in the little screen-time they were given.

I won't mention Kousei, since his growth is the most apparent. Nor will I mention Kaori, even though we learn the whole of her story in the last episode and she that she worked on herself and changed so much in a short time.

Let's start with Tsubaki. A tomboy, Kousei's childhood friend who's in love with him but doesn't even realise it herself. She starts fighting with herself as soon as it hits her. She doesn't want to lose the relationship she has with Kousei. But when she's in love, and there isn't much she can do. She ends up snapping at him when he hasn't done anything wrong, kicking him for no reason, yelling at him at random times. I liked to see how hard she tries to be next to Kousei. It's nice to see a dense character studying and getting high grades, even if it's just to be closer to your love interest. But the thing here is she doesn't want to be next to Kousei to make him her boyfriend. She want to be close to him to be able to take care of him, because she knows Kousei is a clumsy and hopeless boy. He falls asleep everywhere: on the floor, under the piano, literally everywhere. He doesn't eat for days because he's giving his all to studying and playing piano. She knows him better than anyone and she wants to use this to be able to take care of her precious Kousei, even if he will regard him as an older sister all his life. That's really audible.

This show has so many pros I don't even know which one to state and which one not, but I also don't want to make this post much longer than this, so I'll just add a couple of more things I liked:

1. Music. Forget the classics the anime OSTs are absolutely beautiful and charming, they fit the mood, and they don't bleak next to the classical pieces which feel the anime.

2. The animation style. Well the art speaks for itself :)

3. And lastly, I think this anime is an inspirational one. At least it was for me. It made me feel alive, it made me want to create something with my hands, hell it inspired me to sit down and start this blog which I've been putting off for a long time. I can definitely say this is an anime that has influenced my life, an anime that has left its mark in my heart forever... just like the music they played...

It's an amazing anime. It's brilliant. For me it's 10/10. It's a story of young individuals struggling, feeling lost, giving up on their own self, but being able to find will, desire and reasons for moving on.
It's a story that makes you reflect on yourself and your life. It's a story that will make you cry yet smile at the same time... It's a story as real as our lives. It is life...

Well that's it for today! 

Thanks for reading! :)